I've been away

Greetings everyone. 

I've been away for a few months.

I feel horrible that I've not been here to help anyone out.  I do stay on facebook but other then watching netflix or hulu I've not been doing anything. 

I've been in the house and only out for doc appointments since I have I left.  It's been about 7 months now.

Spring has sprung here and I feel the call to finally get out of the dark and start my life again. 

It's only been 7 months since my Mom died.  The pain of losing a parent or gosh I would say losing anyone your very close to, can really disable one for a long time.

I've not opened another game this whole time.  I seriously buried myself in movies, and books.  I even said no to Christmas this last year at my in laws.  My darling husband went and they, bless their hearts held Christmas until Feb for me.  So we did it in Feb.. /smiles at that wonderful gift they gave me in that. 

A loss is a serious time in anyone’s life.  There were a few here who tried to help me during the first month back from her funeral but I just could not do it.  I found it hard to smile or even offer anything to anyone else.

With all this said I am trying to get back into the swing of things.  I do owe you all an apology for not really giving a heads up of my leaving. 

Spring is a time of new growth and so here’s to growing with you all again. 

I'm looking forward to Elder Scrolls online.  I really have not played any games so I have hours of updates I think ahead of me. (hope my Internet can handle it) 

To those that knew what was going on and gave me all your offers of chatting, hugs etc  Thank you from the bottom of my heart.  Every thing you all did for me really helped. 

I live in Maine and my whole family lives in Beaverton, Oregon and my Son and his family lives in California.   With the cost of traveling and the death I was wiped out so visiting has been out.  Frankly I didn't have the wherewithal to stay on Raidcall or visits with anyone.  There were a few of you that did keep in touch via facebook and I just can't thank you enough for that.  Thanks Fog too for chatting with me there and understanding my time to grieve. 

You are all so awesome.  Each and everyone of you bring something wonderful and unique to our family here.  Why is it so hard to understand why this guild is that best guild ever created lol :) 

Take care and Happy Spring.

Phyre

Hi Phyrehart, I'm very glad things are getting better for you and we'll be seeing you around more. I'm a pretty new member to Gaiscioch and we only really spoke a few times (about our cats mostly, lol ). I just wanted to say, I really missed your friendly banter on RaidCall while I was venturing about in the early days of GW2 as a new Gaiscioch member. It made the Family seem even more welcoming(if that's possible). If I can be of any help getting back into the GW2 groove, please give me a holler. Good hunting, Thudden Bluhndr

Welcome back. "Spring is a time for growing", and may your Spring be filled with extra nitrogen and such...you know for growing and things. :) See you around. In Raidcall my handle is Cliff. Its half of my real name as well. Shhh, don't tell anybody cause its a secret.

Oh Debbie I am so glad to see you posting again! I missed you soo much on Raidcall. I tried to add you on facebook but it wouldn't let me, I never did understand facebook settings very well but it just doesn't let me add you or send a msg, I think it is your privacy settings. Maybe you could add me> https://www.facebook.com/amanda.e.marshall.5 I understand what you are saying here, I lost my mum 3 years ago, and like you I did not leave the house for about 6 months, I retreated into solitude for a while, and I completely understand the need to do that. We all have different ways of handling life, death, and grief, and I handled it in a similar way to you. I am so excited to hear you are back!! I won't be in game much because I am moving from Mississippi to Texas in just a couple of weeks, but I will be back once we are settled, and I always check the forum here almost daily even when not playing games. I will try to find you again on facebook, I liked our chats so much I really want to keep in touch.

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Thank you both for understanding. It's just hard sometimes.. like when my siblings or their children post a picture of my mum I didn't know about. Suddenly I am scrolling down and bam right there in my face a full picture of her. I feel like I got hit in the gut. I catch my breath, tear up and stop breathing... I hurts. At least now these months later I am not thinking of her every second. I do read allot with my kindle fire. It helps to pull me away from reality just for a few hours. We all need each other in our deepest times of hurt. It is so very easy to sneak away and hide when the pain is just too much to bear. After realizing that when shared with friends and family it is so much easier. I'm a huge Care bear. I'm always rescuing those in trouble or just need a hand. Even the darn lady bugs that migrate to my home in October. They are here for the all of Winter and my house looks like some sort of zoo for various lady bugs. Usually around (500 or so and it's not just my home. It seems to happen to all the homes here in northern Maine. Through the winter when we up the heat they come from their satiated state thinking spring has sprung and they wander around looking for food and water. If they don't find it they wind up on the floor dead to be swept or vacuumed. I get orange juice and water and mix them then by spoon fulls I scatter it across various walls/corner to so they have food and water. Silly to some I know but this little thing this winter has really helped me along with my grief. It's so simple and easy and yet it was so helpful to me. I do that with spiders too.. I just can't seem to kill them now. My sweet Mom's death has made me love harder then I used to. Made me awake up and see that life is there to love and laugh and support and just plain know that life comes with a expiration date. Love doesn't!!!